So, here it Feb. 26th. It has been one year and one month since Daisy's sleeping body was born into this Earth. We did not conceive this month. But, with everything positive going on in my life right now I am not dwelling on it. I finally feel okay with it for the first time after more than 6 months of trying and being let down. It will happen when it is time. I admit I didn't always have that outlook and I admit it could change at any time.
I steadily am working on the new location for my salon and boutique. It is a dream come true for me! I am putting a lot of "me" into this shop. I am enjoying being so creative and not holding back as I did with my current location. The doors on the new place are bright pink and I love it! Pink, black and white with a little khaki thrown in are my colors. I am doing leopard and zebra print and it is going to be modern, sexy, and FABULOUS!
I am still operating out of my current location today and tomorrow. We hope to get the floors and owning done this weekend and then get my things moved in. I will do my first clients on Main Street in one week! I can't wait!
Now, for a little about my Lilly. She will be going to work with me 2 days a week for a few hours. I have to get her room at the shop all done up. She is so good! I was blessed with a great daughter. She can play by herself and usually minds very well. =)
She is growing like a weed! The pants and long sleeve shirts that I bought her in the fall are all way to short now. We are ready for Spring so we can break out the new clothes and don't have to buy new Winter things.
That's all I have for now. I pray everyone has a great weekend!
Friday, February 26, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
By the Grace of God
I haven't written as much as I had planned to when I first began this blog. I am happy to say that since getting past the one year anniversary of Daisy's birth I have a sense of relief all around me. I don't know if you can understand that if you haven't gone through it. I dreaded that day with every fiber of my being. But, guess what? I made it through it and came out stronger than ever on the other side of it.
I half way expected to fall apart the day after, because I didn't fall apart on her birthday. By God's grace I didn't. I am really happy for the first time in a long time. I had a rough two years or so.
Cayce and I went through a rough patch while I was newly pregnant with Daisy and then I found out about her condition. The next months of carrying her and working out my relationship with my husband were some very trying months. Cayce and I were and are stronger than ever after dealing with the death of our child together. But, the year after her birth and death was a bad year for me. I lost my best friend while dealing with the loss of my baby. Then, it seemed that every other girl friend I had was either pregnant, had just had a baby or was trying to conceive. It killed me inside. Since I am being honest here. ;) I had friends and made friends last year who lost babies or had lost babies. With each new story of a mother losing her child my heart broke. I remembered all of those fresh raw emotions and I went through them again in a way.
I have grown as a woman, mother, wife and friend over the last year. When I finally stopped looking for a "new best friend" God sent me an amazing girl friend with whom I have a lot in common. She was just who I needed/need in my life at this point in time. Remember that God doesn't always bless you the way you expect or want Him to. But, He knows best and I trust Him fully.
I started the Metformin as most of you know. I went up to twice a day yesterday, but I have some GREAT news! I got my first positive Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) last Thursday Feb. 11th. I was thrilled. Although I WAS disappointed because my husband had just left for 3 nights! I thought "Just my luck", but honestly I was too happy that I ovulated or was going to to be upset. There is still a possibility although I believe it is slim. I should know by Feb. 24th-26th.
I really believe changing my diet along with the meds. has helped to begin ovulating again. I could think "Why didn't I do this sooner?" but to be honest I believe it didn't happen because it wasn't the right time. It has taken me quite awhile to get this point of being okay with when it happens it happens. Everyone tells you to relax and it'll happen when you least expect. You think "OKAY YEAH!". It isn't that simple. God has given me this peace and maybe next month will be our month. If not, at least I know my body is getting back on track.
I weighed a few days ago and I had lost 9 lbs. on the first 2 weeks of the diet. I am only weighing once a week now. The weight loss slows after the first 2 weeks and I didn't want to get discouraged so I don't weigh as often. I know it is working. I can tell through my belly most.
So, I have more great news! A blessing that is heaven sent! I have had a small salon in my hometown for 2 years now. I have enjoyed it. I currently only work about 2 days a week and I am able to stay at home with my daughter. My dream has always been to open a boutique one day. Real hip; you know? Then, I got my cosmetology degree and decided that a Salon/Boutique would be amazing! I always visit local boutiques when we go on vacation anywhere and I am so inspired! Long story short, I noticed that the people in a local business on Main Street were moving out the first weekend in Feb. I had looked at the building a few years ago, but it was already spoken for. I found out who owned it and made a call. I begin working on it Feb 16th in the dark and cold with no electricity. I was THAT excited! I should be moved in by March 1st. I have a little bit of time to do a WHOLE lot of work!
It came at just the right time. A month earlier or later and we would not have been able to do it financially. That is how I know it was sent straight from God and in His plan. I am not stressed, because of that. I am still doing hair at my little shop while I get Amber's Hair Salon & Boutique ready to open very soon! If God is for me then who can be against me.
So, I will be out working more and loving every minute of it! The best part is Lilly can go with me and Cayce can get her when he gets home from work. Plus, my wonderful mother-in-law keeps her on Thursday evenings and on Friday for me. While Cayce keeps her on Saturday mornings. If I had been expecting again already; like I had wanted, then I wouldn't be opening up this new shop now. That's how I know God has a plan. It just took some time for it to unfold. I had to trust Him. I never stopped loving Him, but sometime it is hard to trust.
I hope you can begin trusting God today with your life if you haven't been doing so fully lately. Have a blessed day, Amber
I half way expected to fall apart the day after, because I didn't fall apart on her birthday. By God's grace I didn't. I am really happy for the first time in a long time. I had a rough two years or so.
Cayce and I went through a rough patch while I was newly pregnant with Daisy and then I found out about her condition. The next months of carrying her and working out my relationship with my husband were some very trying months. Cayce and I were and are stronger than ever after dealing with the death of our child together. But, the year after her birth and death was a bad year for me. I lost my best friend while dealing with the loss of my baby. Then, it seemed that every other girl friend I had was either pregnant, had just had a baby or was trying to conceive. It killed me inside. Since I am being honest here. ;) I had friends and made friends last year who lost babies or had lost babies. With each new story of a mother losing her child my heart broke. I remembered all of those fresh raw emotions and I went through them again in a way.
I have grown as a woman, mother, wife and friend over the last year. When I finally stopped looking for a "new best friend" God sent me an amazing girl friend with whom I have a lot in common. She was just who I needed/need in my life at this point in time. Remember that God doesn't always bless you the way you expect or want Him to. But, He knows best and I trust Him fully.
I started the Metformin as most of you know. I went up to twice a day yesterday, but I have some GREAT news! I got my first positive Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) last Thursday Feb. 11th. I was thrilled. Although I WAS disappointed because my husband had just left for 3 nights! I thought "Just my luck", but honestly I was too happy that I ovulated or was going to to be upset. There is still a possibility although I believe it is slim. I should know by Feb. 24th-26th.
I really believe changing my diet along with the meds. has helped to begin ovulating again. I could think "Why didn't I do this sooner?" but to be honest I believe it didn't happen because it wasn't the right time. It has taken me quite awhile to get this point of being okay with when it happens it happens. Everyone tells you to relax and it'll happen when you least expect. You think "OKAY YEAH!". It isn't that simple. God has given me this peace and maybe next month will be our month. If not, at least I know my body is getting back on track.
I weighed a few days ago and I had lost 9 lbs. on the first 2 weeks of the diet. I am only weighing once a week now. The weight loss slows after the first 2 weeks and I didn't want to get discouraged so I don't weigh as often. I know it is working. I can tell through my belly most.
So, I have more great news! A blessing that is heaven sent! I have had a small salon in my hometown for 2 years now. I have enjoyed it. I currently only work about 2 days a week and I am able to stay at home with my daughter. My dream has always been to open a boutique one day. Real hip; you know? Then, I got my cosmetology degree and decided that a Salon/Boutique would be amazing! I always visit local boutiques when we go on vacation anywhere and I am so inspired! Long story short, I noticed that the people in a local business on Main Street were moving out the first weekend in Feb. I had looked at the building a few years ago, but it was already spoken for. I found out who owned it and made a call. I begin working on it Feb 16th in the dark and cold with no electricity. I was THAT excited! I should be moved in by March 1st. I have a little bit of time to do a WHOLE lot of work!
It came at just the right time. A month earlier or later and we would not have been able to do it financially. That is how I know it was sent straight from God and in His plan. I am not stressed, because of that. I am still doing hair at my little shop while I get Amber's Hair Salon & Boutique ready to open very soon! If God is for me then who can be against me.
So, I will be out working more and loving every minute of it! The best part is Lilly can go with me and Cayce can get her when he gets home from work. Plus, my wonderful mother-in-law keeps her on Thursday evenings and on Friday for me. While Cayce keeps her on Saturday mornings. If I had been expecting again already; like I had wanted, then I wouldn't be opening up this new shop now. That's how I know God has a plan. It just took some time for it to unfold. I had to trust Him. I never stopped loving Him, but sometime it is hard to trust.
I hope you can begin trusting God today with your life if you haven't been doing so fully lately. Have a blessed day, Amber
Thursday, February 11, 2010
I have been super busy.
I know I need to post a new blog soon. I have been super busy the last week! I have some great news to share, but not just yet. I did begin taking the Met. last Thursday. My glucose levels and thyroid were perfect, but my insulin resistance was on the high side. ( Another marker for PCOS) So, I guess I have been diagnosed with it at this point. I pray the Metformin starts doing it's job soon. It seems to be helping already. Along with the diet I am doing. I have lost 7lbs. so far. So, I am getting ready for whatever God may have in store for me. I want to be as healthy as possible for this journey called life.
To be continued....
To be continued....
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